Saturday, April 19, 2014

man candy saturday

reminds me of my first boyfriend back in the day

Thursday, April 17, 2014


Contact precaution Barbie

a country that won't say no

I started adulthood as a bleeding heart liberal.  Then I got a job in the emergency room. I am for helping poor people.  I really am. Circumstances can cause terrible situations where people need help.

The thing is there is definitely a group of people in this country who expect to be taken care of by the government or whoever just by virtue of their existence.  These are the people who expect you to pay for their medications.  They take that free cab ride home two blocks even if they are a healthy 25 year old. They get free health care. Their care will always be paid for no matter what.  They don't have to worry about an ER co pay or their insurance company only paying 80% of their bill and they will be responsible for the bill. So they use the ER as a clinic.  There are no consequences, so why not?

I know its not easy being poor.  I grew up poor. My mother was a single parent of two kids who didn't have any higher education.  She wasn't making big money by any means. A couple of times things happened where we had to go on welfare for a little while.  She went off as soon as she could.  It was a temporary helping hand not a lifestyle.

I have a feeling that if all of this was tightened up the world would not come to an end. People would survive. They would have to do what they needed to survive whatever it took. It would take effort, but that would be good.  We are afraid to say no to people nowadays.

Wednesday, April 16, 2014

the ER shit show

One of my co workers once told me that since she had decided she "hated the ER", it has been easier to come to work.  I know you are probably thinking ...hey...why don't you just get another job?  Well, hours, pay, seniority, self scheduling.

Saying this sounds negative and defeatist...but maybe not? What if it says acceptance? I accept that working in the ER is often a shit show.  I'm not going to pretend it is anything else anymore. I'm not going to expect anything else. It is what it is.

You are letting go of your expectations that people will be nice to you.  You know it will be busier than shit. Accept that the ER is not set up for your convenience. Its old and shabby.  However, I chose to keeping working here for whatever reason,

Its the serenity prayer applied to ER:

God grant me the serenity
to accept that the ER is mostly a shit show
and I can't  change it
Courage to change my naive notion that it will change
And the wisdom to face reality. *

the way no offense to AA or Alanon who I think all great organizations.