Tuesday, October 11, 2011
the good, the bad and the ugly
Nursing is such a weird profession. When I was a nursing asst way back when, I swore I would never be one of them bedpan carrying nurses, but here I am. If you look at nursing intellectually it is a pretty cool job. It is interesting, challenging, rewarding. It is always changing. Not everyone can do it, particularly ER nursing. It is never dull. It really fits me to a T. I don't like routine. I like a challenge. I like the chaotic environment of the ER and function well there. It has variety. So sometimes I say to myself, cool. I'm glad I went for this job.
Then someone calls me a "fucking bitch!" and all of the above goes out the window. I ask myself why am I in a job that is as hard as this one? A lot of the time it feels thankless. It exhausts me physically, mentally, emotionally. It overwhelms me at times. Its too much responsibility for too little.
Now some nurses would say, oh when people thank me it makes it all worthwhile. Whatever. I suppose. That is somewhat important but not that much to me.
I would say what has kept me in nursing (ER nursing in particular) and what I will miss most is the challenge. Nursing is one of the most challenging jobs you can have. It challenges you intellectually because you are always learning something new. It challenges you as a person to be able to function in situations that are life or death and be able to do it. It forces you to handle anything from the very weird to the very scary and learn to deal with it. You never know what will walk through the door and that is both ominous and interesting.
Can you ever integrate the two sides of nursing: the good and the bad? I really don't think so. All you can do is take it day to day and do the best you can.
Posted by girlvet at 10:52 PM